I'd just like to say before we start that I am utterly pathetic with love, relationships, and all things having to do with me relating to guys on a level more than tackling each other to the ground. Don't think I'm kidding, it's actually quite ridiculous. I can kick your ass and utterly crush you in Halo, but when it comes to dating a guy I'm a complete idiot. It's pretty much wonderful.

Let's use the code name Butch for the guy that I like.

So Butch and I have known each other for a while; and when we first met, we both liked each other and told each other and it was wonderful butterfly crap for about..ten minutes. Then he got another girlflriend. (We don't live near each other). So, la la la few years of not liking him, and then... smack! This year happens and I see him again and it's pretty much ruining me. I know that I should never let anyone determine how I feel or anything like that, but honestly, at this point it's an inevitable fact that I am going to like him, and it might be for a while... I'll never really know. Until it's over of course.

It's just that right now Butch seems to have nothing to do with me, agonizing casual conversation and nothing more really. But when we're together it's like all of those stupid movies. I fail.

Help.